i should jus lose hope.

you pick me up only to break me again.
ill think of you,and our memories if you belong to another.

today was okay.had a few mood swings.controlled alot.hmmm.well,i felt so shitty-fied during geog.haiya.you know i was starting to think that things were getting better but i think i thought wrong.gosh.well,i dont know.i've been trying super hard not to break again cus i'm supposed to prove my twinny,ginny wrong.that i wont break again.for the rest of my life i hope.but i so know its not possible.i guess that's jus too bad for me.

twinn!02,ginny:hey you.i know you've been thru alot lately.just rmb im here for you alrite?and that im here anytime you need anything. :]that's all i can do for now cus i havent had time to talk to you.but as soon as the papers are over,or if i have time in between,i'll talk to you k?i wanna know whats going on. :]take care please!love much dearest.

yeah.so..its zenn's birthday tmr,i hope she likes my pressie!!!it wont make you fat coolio!!i love you girl!i hope its good.thank you for everything you've done for me.i know i push you away sometimes.but please rmb i love ya girl!i jus gotta get my life figured out.so bear with me? :]i know you will,cus ur the only coolio i have and ur SPECIAL!!:) best wishes for ur birthday and that all ur dreams come true.hey!!now that ur 18,you can buy me alcohol!!!!WHEE!!hehee :p you'll be my coolio supplier.hehe.dont you think thats super cool.heh.well,wait till i'm at least 16 den i'll sneak drinks with you!whee.okie dokie.i guess thats it,i love you coolio!take care :0 have a slammin' birthday bash!

thursdays,hmmm.short day today.im super broke now adays please.i find it pathetic.heh.well,guess what??mum went for a photo shoot today.heh.cool aye?den they said they might need teen models,then i was snatching all the photos that she hi-jacked from my wallet and albums back from her.heh.yeah but when i checked this morning,it was all gone again!!and i didnt know where she put it.hahh.retarded please.hahs.

i miss charlotte hofstetter!!!!!!!!!hehe.
girl,if you read this!!i miss you and i'll get to you soon.i'm using a prepaid card.if you really need to get me:81044665.i love you truck loads dear! :)

okie dokie.guess that's it for today?take care ya'll.cheers.ta!

"Unbelievable"
I Wish you didnt love me
I wish you'd make this easy
It was love that caught me
Now it's fear that keeps me with you
I want to be by your side
So I can close my eyes
To the growing emptiness inside that kills me
When I'm with you

You try to break me
Try to hate me
So you can fall out of love
You want to make me believe that I'm crazy
That I'm nothing with out you

It's unbelievable,but I believed you
Unforgivable,but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable,but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own,
Alone.

I feel you in my shadow
My heart feels cold and hollow
No matter where I run I see
Your eyes always follow me

You try to hold me
Try to own me
Keeping something that's not yours
You want to make me
Believe that I'm crazy
Make me think that you're the cure

It's unbelievable,but I believed you
Unforgivable,but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable,but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own,
Alone.

You're still haunting me.In my sleep,
You're all I see.But I can't go back
Cause I know it's wrong
For us to go on
And I'm growing strong
To confront my fears

It's unbelievable,but I believed you
Unforgivable,but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable,but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own
Alone.

"i let me at least dream,
miss just let it hurt me again.
the just so that i learn my lesson.
us." that there's no part of you that will love me again.